Crush

I have a high-school-crush.
Note: I didn't say I HAD a high-school-crush, I HAVE one.

That's right. I have a crush on a boy. Well, actually, he's a guy ( I don't know him well yet, so I'm not granting a man status for him yet). I thought I'd lose all the giggling when I turned 30. I'm pleasantly surprised to find that I still have a teenage girl living in me somewhere. I, WE, live in a society where women are not "sophisticated" or "independent" if she feels better about herself because of a love interest. Well, I'd like to opposed that.

I don't mean to pull a Freud and say that EVERYTHING we do is driven by a sexual drive or an attraction to our preferred gender. I'm simply saying that sometimes, it's nice to have a guy, or a girl, who make you blush a little. Since I've developed this crush, things have been much better. I don't feel too depressed about having no boy friend. I eat better, and stand up straighter. I put an make up and spray a bit of perfume to smell nice. I give a little more thought on how I dress everyday. The benefits are great too!

The major side effects, or should I say side ben-effects, are also pumping up my ego and confidence. People are noticing I look different, better, some have used the term "lovely". I notice that I am more pleasant to others. Then I realized.... I AM ATTRACTIVE. I learned that attractiveness is NOT something you are born with, but something you gain by making small changes that enhances you. For me, it was a high-school-crush like "thing I have at the moment. It may be different for other people. You just gotta find out what whirls your mojo.